Nobody is perfect in the world… Our tutor Dr. Janice Toh--- is such a boring tutor… She is clever but clever doesn’t mean anything. So I should be more confident in myself, even though I cannot do the best, but at least I tried my best to do the best…

After the boring lecture, my friend and I went to Gurney Plaza to have our lunch. Before we went in to the Wong Kok restaurant, we planned to go to the food court as it would be cheaper . Unfortunately, the food court was not open.

I had kimchi fried rice for my lunch in Wong Kok restaurant…YUMMY…MY … It was delicious.

When we passed by Tanjung Tokong, I think about Dyan… cause I had planned to go spa with her during my sem break. But… we totally forgot about it. Haiz... I think I should save some $$ to beautify my body… to clean up all the dry skins. hahaxx…

After that, back to our college. It was LAST’s lecture. Omg… He was totally same as usual. The teaching method, the talking speed, and the way of how he presented in the lecture were the same. I think I will fail his subject this semester. No other way to go…

L… 5pm---it was the time that I needed to go to work. I dropped my keys in the drain. It was so disgusting. The moment when I decided to go down and pick it up, a guy from mobile shop came out n picked it up for me. Should I feel touched? Hahaxx… I got no feeling at all… hahaxx…

Thinking about tomorrow… Should I go to the college tomorrow?? Joanne and Corine are not going. I am also planning not to go to college & go to Jane Ooi’s house to learn piano. But she is not free tomorrow. So … Should I change my mind and go back to the lecture? But it is LAST’s lecture…

Tomorrow … Tomorrow… There are a lot of things that I need to do tomorrow… Check my result in the morning…

1— Transfer my course fee to my debit card…

2—-- Go to bank buy bank draft…

3— -- Go to bank ask my house loan payment…

4—-- Go to bank pay my car loan…

5—-- Clean up my messy room…

--6- & decide whether should I go to the college…haha

I really hope my results tomorrow won’t disappoint me…

27th September 2010

Today-- MONDAY… everything goes back to usual… my life… my work… n the WEATHER as well…

The weather freaking hot...~... Made me felt uncomfortable (my whole body is very sticky)

I felt very tired today… It’s because my holiday had over, and I have to go back to my usual life (PAK PIA)… had to study and work…

~ I cannot sleep as long as I want & without setting an alarm anymore…

~ I cannot go out with my friends anymore…

~ I cannot online and watch my favorite movies and dramas for the whole day anymore…

~ I cannot keep all my notes in the box without referring anymore…

~ I cannot be lazy and day dream anymore…

All these I cannot do for the next 3 months… I miss that!!!

Time passes fast… Everything was just like happened yesterday…

The new semester started… I know it is a tough semester, but I am not sure whether I will be able to handle it or not… Today… back to normal… The same thing happened again--don’t have enough notes for all the students… Thus, I can just listen to my tutor without jotting down anything. I remembered I had promised myself in my last final exam that I will pay attention in next semester… But… it seems like all hat and no cattle (talking more than action…)

Actually goes back to usual life is not as bad as I think… at least I got somebody to talk to in college. Between, the busy life will make my life full of colour. At least I know I am not the useless people who wasting the time doing nothing…

Joanne and Corine had told me the college had added in more bus routes which included Farlim carltex… Wah… It was so nice to hear that. It’s quite near to my house, which means I can take the college bus to and fro; this helps me to save my petrol expenses…

Seriously, I hate Monday... The day seems like a long day; and it is such a tired day. I believed most of the people would have the same feeling with me. Hahax…

But… my motto ‘cherish today, because it will be the memories of tomorrow’ wake me up… Therefore, I have to work hard for my future to have a better of life…

My 1st piano lesson

Today was my 1^st piano lesson… Really thanks to Jane Ooi for willing to teach me ---this old cow…

I felt very excited when I was driving to her house… I took about 15minutes to find her house. There were a lot of similar flats,that confused me, it was totally like a maze… haha…

I really admire her… she’s an experienced music teacher and she took the effort and patience to teach me this --- old cow… hehe…

I like her … Like her as my friend… She is sensible and thoughtful…and she loves…-- music…

I enjoyed her piano lessons… I hope I can learn it up fast… But I understand… everything we have to put in efforts and time… So…I will try my very best to learn it… I believe I will be able to play well the piano someday…

But currently I don’t have the $$$ to buy a piano… so I need to go to her house to play it… Hope she doesn't mind…

After the piano lesson… we went over to QB to have our lunch & did some shopping… We had Mcd for lunch… During our lunch, we chit-chatted a lot of personal things… This made us have more understandings between each other. We couldn’t finish our fries… Then-~ we started to think about our loved ones… haha… (I guarantee she will laugh when she sees this… haha...)

After that… We went shopping for a while and fan guai(went home)… haha… cause I needed to go to work at 5pm…

我不快乐。。。

整个世界都在变　你是不是也变了
如果一切重新来过　还会不会再犯错
你有多久没有好好的看我　问问我想要什么
我要的其实不多　但最近我很不快乐
如果能习惯沈默　我或许就不难过
如果不是真的爱过　我又何必太执著
为何你从不懂我想些什么　你只是太爱闪躲
我要的其实不多　但最近我总觉得
不快乐　我很不快乐　有一种想哭的念头
却又说不出那是什么　我就是觉得
不快乐　我很不快乐　寂寞好像有填不完的缺口
你说你爱我　却只是很少过问我的感受
如果能习惯沈默　我或许就不难过
如果不想再挽回什么　我要何必太执著
为何你从不懂我想些什么　你只是太爱闪躲
我心里有个角落　你从不曾在意过
不快乐　我很不快乐　有一种想哭的念头
却又说不出那是什么　我就是觉得
不快乐　我很不快乐　为什么爱情会这样的寂寞
你总说爱我　可是又从不走进我的生活
整个世界都在变　我是不是也变了

我~不快乐...

最近的我不快乐。。。
不快乐？？因为他病了？
错。。。我感觉到越来越讨厌他。
他病，我每晚担心他又如何？
还连夜照顾他，但最后换来的只有呼喊。
他根本不会疼我连夜担心和照顾他，连一句问候我累不累也没有。
我每晚担心的无法睡觉，还得半夜三更载他去看医生。

但现在的我的确心灰了。。。
当他不爽一样东西时，可以好好跟我讲的，不必大庭广众呼喊或给我脸色吧！
我真的真的很反感。。。对不起。。。
即使你带我去吃好料我也不在乎，因为看到你给我的脸色我就讨厌了。
最快乐的时候还是可以拍照的时候。可以把每个最好的回忆拍起来。
每当我不开心我就是喜欢拍照，因为我还是笑得出来。

你越来越不明白我了。。。其实我也累了。。。

想他

这几天的我一直都很想他，只是他不知道而已。
想起他的幽默，想起他的可爱；
无时无刻会想起他说讲过的话；
想要一个可以偶然遇上的机会；
想要一个可以见面和交谈的机会。

我想。。。我快疯了。。。

当局者迷

昨晚。。。发了一场梦！！
虽然不是很清楚的知道梦里有谁？
但还是隐隐约约知道发生了什么事。

梦里有两男一女。
本来一男一女是情侣。
但有天，这女的对这男的很冷。
因为她对另一个男的动了情，对他有了好感。
她每天惦记着他，想见到他。
久而久之，他就渐渐把她男友的事不放在心上了。

有一天，她男友得了一场大病，她也不知道。
就这样他离她而去。
当她知道后，她感到非常后悔。
这时的她才发现，原来一瞬间的爱情还是比不过已久的爱情。
她拿起了一把刀，往她胸前一插。
这一刀，让她觉得安心，放心。她完全没感觉到痛。
她只有心里的伤痛，痛在她失去了一个真正爱的人，而不是一瞬间的爱。

这个梦告诉了我当局者迷，别为了一时的意念或想法来决定某些事情。
凡是还是想清楚后果了才作决定。。。

我家的...小可爱^^

　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　~JoJo~><

　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　看不见眼睛的“小可爱”

　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　~... JoJo ...~

　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　~ 柔柔 ~ ^^

这只小可爱是我家的宝。。。
没人敢把它当草。。。

它 ~~JoJo...
我们都叫它Joe......

Jojo在我家也有９年了。
这９年里，它带给了我们欢乐和陪伴。

它喜欢每晚每一个房间走来陪我们；
它喜欢跟着我们后面走；
它喜欢出去，但很可怜，全家人都很忙没空带它出去。

狗真的是人类最好的朋友。。。
每当我生病时，它会睡在我床下，陪伴着我。
每当我不开心，我一看到它我心情就会开朗。

好玩，好吃，好睡．．．的~它，
真的把我家照亮了起来
真的好希望它会永远陪伴着我们。

但．．．

这是没可能会发生的事！！

*again*

The year is going to end,
and my life is going .... miserable...


WHY???

Because I got no job for 2 months and I have tight with my finance & it is going to beyond my budget.

Oh my god... WHAT SHOULD I DO???
I have a lot of commitments to bear such as car loan,house loan,insurance & etc...

These will really kill me if i have no income...

闷-...-闷透了

这几天的假日快把我闷透了，
房间和车都收拾清洁了，戏也看完了，除了一些不想看的而已。
考试前和考试当时，都觉得手头上有很多东西要做，都得推到考试后。
但现在的我根本什么都不想做，彻彻底底的是一个懒人。

就这几天里，
我感觉到寂寞和没有朋友。
以前朋友还蛮多时，不懂几时才有机会跟他们出去。
但当我有时间时，却一个朋友也叫不出，真悲哀。。。
我曾经听说过真正的朋友是认识对方的家人，有他们的电话，在他们家吃饭。
哈哈哈。。。真悲哀。。。
朋友...会有几个？
知己...又会有几个？

朋友（知名知姓），可有很多。
知己（关系密切），只有两个。
这几天里，我才发觉自己没什么朋友。
要出国的都已出国；
读着书的正在考试；
没出国没读书的就忙工作。
就因为时间上的不配合，快把我闷透了。。。

她

在这几个月里，
少了你的煽风点火,
我和隆总可以有个安定的生活了。

从中，你也让我学会了分轻重；
让我懂得分辨几时是假几时是真；
而几时该相信和几时不该相信。

认识了你可以说是我的罪孽，
我差点误信你的话而错怪我该信任的人。
请别在我面前乱说话，也请别再挑破我与他的感情。

你可有想过你的过分会惹人厌恶？
你可有想过你所做的一切会遭来报应？
这一切一切都不是你我能控制的。

你的醋意害了你身边的朋友；
你的醋意让你心爱的人受苦；
你的醋意让人觉得你不讲理；
你的醋意让我也怕了你。。。

其实，早前我也是一个醋意蛮重的人，
但还不会严重到挑破离间人家的关系。
毕竟每个女人太过在乎她所爱的人时，
难免会有些醋意。。。

女人，还是别醋意太大；
到头来还是会伤到自己；
所谓：“害人害己”。。。
还是适可而此吧！！

因为她，
我学会了相信；
学会了分辨黑白。
学会了 ‘防人之心不可无，害人之心不可有’。

防不胜防，还是必须小心身边伪装的朋友；
他们就有如突如其来的猛兽；
越靠近越危险。。。
所以要仔细认真地去了解每个身边的朋友，
因为不是每个朋友都会真诚地对待你。

回忆

怎样的回忆才会让人铭记在心？？
怎样的开心才会使人变成回忆？？
怎样的悲哀才会让人改过自新？？

这一切都是乎你的想法和毅力。。。
一个简单的回忆也会让人永记心中;
一个值得原谅的过错让人改过自新。
这一切一切都需要你的体谅和关心。

大海。。。就是这么的寂静！！
当我望着大海的那一刻，它让我有个难忘的回忆；
它帮我把烦恼都抛进了大海，让我有个作决定的机会；
它的涛声让我可以平静的思考，让我有个肯定的答案；

它的包容和大量，让我学会了如何去体谅和关心。

这一萨那的美好，让我把一切过去转变成美好的未来；

当看着美丽大海的那一刻，我会把它铭记在心。
因为它让我有个开心又怀念的回忆。。。